And the Nightmare Begins....

Hey guys...finally back in KL after spending bout 1 week in KK and Sandakan for CNY...hehe...

(sigh~) Everytime I go back to KK, there's always this feeling of - regret? The stuff in my room always reminds me of my childhood dream, and how I haven't achieve it yet... feel like throwing the stuff away, but in the end I still tidak sampai hati... though I would say everytime I go back it gets a tad more easier to accept. Everytime I think of that I'll suddenly have the urge to study really really hard and get a first class honours to compensate for that disappointment...haha... I even told my bro that I want to spend 12 hours per day in the library (haha)... but we all know that firstly, getting a first class in UM's law school is almost impossible (it only happened once in 10 years, I think) and secondly, it's a total different story when I'm back in KL. 12 hours? haha...I'll be lucky if I can spend 1 hour studying NOT for the sake of tutorials...

But still, doesn't change the fact that I NEED to study hard this remaining of the semester - no more fooling around, no more relaxing unnecessarily and doing other what nots....

I just want to be outstanding in my own way. My sis says I'm too low profile - whether it's in church or in the faculty. That got me thinking. In the end, I came to the conclusion that I want to be outstanding in my own way and in my own time. I don't have to purposely join stuff to make myself outstanding, I just want to be ME.