I Need To......

I Need To:

1. Read 2 more tort cases which is 37 and 45 pages respectively for Monday's tutorial;

2. Finish tort presentation which is on next Tuesday - gotta get up early tomorrow at 7:30am for our discussion at 8am -??? i really don't know;

3. Finish Titas project, still waiting for final group meeting to get everything concluded;

4. Start doing Contract assignment, group work again, which we have less than a month to finish ...@.@;

5. Start doing the APK Hari keusahawanan thing - which I have no idea how to start doing, luckily it's group work again;

6. Study for my Malaysia Legal System test which constitutes 25% of our final marks, and I have a very strict lecturer with very high standards who owns a very good reputation for liking to fail people;

7. Study for finals which is about 55 days away....

In addition to that, I have to:

Stop feeding myself (with junk food) XD;

that's why I have decided to

fast on chocolate for Lent season

Right now, all I want to do is:

GO TO SLEEP

have had not enough sleep for three freaking straight nights, make it four - tonight will be another one of those nights

Alternatively,

I would like to stay online to chat with friends, which I was unable to do in the past week or so bcoz of some technical difficulties +.+'''

In conclusion,

AAAAAAARRRRRRRRRHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Did i scream already? let me scream again

AAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Tonight - I Won...but My Team Lost...

Hmm...how to start le????

Okie, let me start by saying that I represent my residential college/hostel (here after referred to as college) to play badminton for the SUKUM (Sukan Universiti Malaya)...

Tonight, we had a match, and my team lost 2-1, although I won my match.... such a pity... tomorrow we have another match, but I think we will most likely lose also since the other team is very strong... so to conclude, this tournament is a failure... I'm actually not that sad over losing,because this is only a small part of a bigger picture, and I'm more concerned with the bigger picture...

Well, so what is the bigger picture? I'd actually put high hopes in this SUKUM thing so that I can apply to stay back in college in the next acadmic year... but since we lost, the 分量 of this activity seems to have diminish greatly... I mean, would college still want to keep u when u've lost? (which equals you didn't contribute anything to college....sigh~)

The other way that we can contribute is through joining college projects, where you get chosen (after interview) to become part of the organizing committee of a project. And so far I've only joined one project....while my other coursemates joined 6, 9 even 10 projects... WOW ... I have no idea how they find the time.... Actually, sports weigh A LOT in our college (compared to projects), that's why I was banking on it... but I'm not sure whether it will still weigh that much when you didn't win... (sigh~)

So what am I actually worrying about? Well, the truth is I'm not sure whether 1 project + representing college in SUKUM without winning anything = can stay back in college in 2nd year... as I've already explained the amount of projects my coursemates are joining to stay back.... u might be asking what's so good about staying in college? I can only say it's cheaper, more convenient and IT'S JUST NEXT TO MY FACULTY...... other than that, I would have preferred to move out, but between having no transport to come to school (if I move out) and being not very familiar with the area around, I think it's better if I can manage to stay back, at least for 2nd year...

However, in the midst of worrying about the future, there's a voice that keeps popping out inside my head, saying that I shouldn't worry, because God will provide me with what I need... He provided food for birds in the air, who does not store food for themselves; and dressed the lilies of the fields, that even Solomon in all his splendor wasn't dressed like one of them. So if God can provide for the grass in fields, which is here today and thrown into the fire tomorrow, I am ABSOLUTELY SURE that God will provide me with a good, convenient place to stay for the next few years while I'm here... I just need to have faith, continue praying and trust that He has His own plan (even if I really end up not being able to stay back in college)....:)

Old Songs...

Hah...I'm supposed to be studying tort right now, but look at what I end up doing...haha...

After reading Abby's post on A Walk to Remember, I suddenly had the urge to listen to the movie's soundstracks.... so I downloaded it, actually only 3 of the more famous songs: (1) Cry - Mandy Moore; (2) Only Hope - Mandy Moore; and (3) Someday We'll Know - Mandy Moore & Jonathan Foreman....

Maybe because I'm older now, when I listen to these songs now, I notice that the lyrics really have a deeper spiritual meaning (at least to me), especially "Only Hope" and "Someday We'll Know"....

This is my favourite part:

There's a song inside of my soul
It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again
I'm awake in the infinite cold
But You sing to me over and over and over again

Sing to me the song of the stars
Of Your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that You have for me over again

After listening and reading it, I felt so touched ... Reminds me that I'm weak... that by my own human strength, I've tried and tried many times to do things my own way,and failed... but then God was and is always there and He never gave me up (even when I was far away from Him), in the infinite cold, when my dreams were far, He sung to me over and over and over again the plans He had for me.....
So Abby when u listen to the songs (after you've watch the movie), and whoever else who reads the lyrics, I hope you can feel the spiritual meaning too... haha....

Random Post...

School started again after the CNY holidays/mid sem break...Sadly, I had to begin the second half of second sem with sore throat and fever...(sigh~) The brief facts are these: I woke up with a sore throat on Tuesday morning, felt sick throughout the day but decided I should just take panadol and rest more. So I didn't see a doctor. Next day, instead of getting better, I woke up with a VERY BAD sore throat and high fever...that was when I decided I had to see a doctor, and luckily I did, cause my temperature was a frikking 39 degree Celcius. Anyway, I am a lot better now. No more fever, just a lil sore throat but from out from no where I suddenly have cough and running nose...spoil all my study plans....GRRRrrrr....

But anyway, if you've noticed I haven't been posting any pictures lately... the simple reason is because I'm lazy (hahaha) and I don't really have any interesting pictures to post now....but if I don't then everything is just gonna be all words which equals to all boring...so I'm just posting some very random pictures, though I must warn you that they may not be in sequence and are totally insignificant...haha

First of all, really feel like eating apple pie (made by Abby's auntie...) with ice cream...have been eating porridge for the last 2 days...(sob) This picture was taken at my family's Christmas dinner...

My brother, aka banana boi...keke..taken in the car on the way back from Sandakan to KK during Chinese New Year...my father let my bro drive from Ranau to Telupid on the way to Sandakan and I was screaming (mostly instructions, I'm such a good backseat driver XD) all the way (almost all lar)

Back in KK, went to New York New York in 1 Borneo with a few of my church friends.... We didn't eat the giant huge Yankee burger, but I did get a glimpse of the legendary burger from the table next to us....haha

Picture taken by my brother...This is Perdy, his favourite dog (with his ugly feet and also a paw of my other dog, Puppy at the sides of the pic - I'm sure you can see it but I like to point it out anyway... XD haha) It's supposed to look like the famous big head dog, so does it? Hmm...but I think it's pretty cute anyway...

Another random picture, went to Midvally the other day and was on my way back to Uni. Was waiting at University Station for the Rapid KL bus and it was raining, so took a random pic to ease off the boring-ness...

Ha....well, that's all...

And the Nightmare Begins....

Hey guys...finally back in KL after spending bout 1 week in KK and Sandakan for CNY...hehe...

(sigh~) Everytime I go back to KK, there's always this feeling of - regret? The stuff in my room always reminds me of my childhood dream, and how I haven't achieve it yet... feel like throwing the stuff away, but in the end I still tidak sampai hati... though I would say everytime I go back it gets a tad more easier to accept. Everytime I think of that I'll suddenly have the urge to study really really hard and get a first class honours to compensate for that disappointment...haha... I even told my bro that I want to spend 12 hours per day in the library (haha)... but we all know that firstly, getting a first class in UM's law school is almost impossible (it only happened once in 10 years, I think) and secondly, it's a total different story when I'm back in KL. 12 hours? haha...I'll be lucky if I can spend 1 hour studying NOT for the sake of tutorials...

But still, doesn't change the fact that I NEED to study hard this remaining of the semester - no more fooling around, no more relaxing unnecessarily and doing other what nots....

I just want to be outstanding in my own way. My sis says I'm too low profile - whether it's in church or in the faculty. That got me thinking. In the end, I came to the conclusion that I want to be outstanding in my own way and in my own time. I don't have to purposely join stuff to make myself outstanding, I just want to be ME.