09/09/09

I feel so bad now I feel like just giving up, or alternatively, can someone feed me with loads of ice cream??

Things that are going through my head

1. A dull pain in the left hemisphere of my brain which can’t seem to be get rid of by sleeping… dang it!!

2. Ways to make myself start studying for my Family Law test

3. How the long weekend has come to an end and I haven’t done one single bit of studying at all…haix~

4. How to get out from attending CC meeting later

5. Wishing that it’s still holiday now and will the real holiday please come faster???? Grrrr…..

I'm Mediocre After All...

"A lot of students come to me and tell me: What happened to me? I used to be the star student of my school, now I'm just mediocre, what happened to me?"

"You have to stop competing with each other. Your life is not just about grades; university is a place where you're supposed to build yourself up."

"Everyday you wake up, and from your room (where ever it is: in college, or in SS 17 or somewhere else), you come to school, then go to the library, then go back to your room. Everyday it's the same, everything becomes so routine - you're living a black life."

"From now to the end of March (exam usually starts in April), you have 9 months. Averagely you have about 45 days to master each subject (we have 6)."

Tell me, how does one discard competitiveness? It's not something that you can switch on and off.
It's tiring, I'm tired. Whoever said university was enjoyable clearly didn't take this course.

Btw, I didn't say any of the above, it's just taken from random conversations/lectures.

Random post

I'm lying on my bed now, blogging while Switchfoot is playing over and over again...
In about 24 more hours, I wouldn't be here, not for another 5 months...
I still have a thousand million things to pack, but I really don't know where to start...
And why did no one tell me that a fringe was so hard to maintain? Now I'll have to take a dumb bimbo comb (and probably scissors) around....

Btw, do check out my playlist if you have time, I'm so thrilled that I've finally figured out how to post it on my page (yeah, you more IT-able(d) people go ahead and laugh out loud), but I did it alone, without asking help from someone, so I'm pretty pleased with myself....:p
Anyway, the songs are all by Switchfoot, Jon Foreman really writes good songs.. one of them, I think the second track "This is Home" is used in the Narnia movie, and my favourite is no.?? ( I don't know, forgotten), "You", it's got touching lyrics...XD

"God, can You give me one good reason not to quit?"

I didn't write this, but thought I'd like to share it...

One day I decided to quit...I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality... I wanted to quit my life.

I went to the woods to have one last talk with God.

"God", I asked, "Can you give me one good reason not to quit?"

His answer surprised me...

"Look around", He said. "Do you see the fern and the bamboo?"

"Yes", I replied.

"When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them.

I gave them light. I gave them water.

The fern quickly grew from the earth. Its brilliant green covered the floor. Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo.

In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful. And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo. He said.

"In year three there was still nothing from the bamboo seed. But I would not quit.

In year four, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed. I would not quit." He said.

"Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth. Compared to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant.

But just 6 months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall. It had spent the five years growing roots.

Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive. I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle."

He asked me. "Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots".

"I would not quit on the bamboo. I will never quit on you."

"Don't compare yourself to others." He said.

"The bamboo had a different Purpose than the fern. Yet they both make the forest beautiful."

"Your time will come", God said to me. "You will rise high"

"How high should I rise?" I asked.

"How high will the bamboo rise?" He asked in return.

"As high as it can?" I questioned.

"Yes."

He said, "Give me glory by rising as high as you can."

I left the forest and brought back this story. I hope these words can help you see that God will never give up on you.

Never, Never, Never Give up. For the Prayer is not an option but an opportunity.

Don't tell the Lord how big the problem is, tell the problem how Great the Lord is!