"God, can You give me one good reason not to quit?"

I didn't write this, but thought I'd like to share it...

One day I decided to quit...I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality... I wanted to quit my life.

I went to the woods to have one last talk with God.

"God", I asked, "Can you give me one good reason not to quit?"

His answer surprised me...

"Look around", He said. "Do you see the fern and the bamboo?"

"Yes", I replied.

"When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them.

I gave them light. I gave them water.

The fern quickly grew from the earth. Its brilliant green covered the floor. Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo.

In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful. And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo. He said.

"In year three there was still nothing from the bamboo seed. But I would not quit.

In year four, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed. I would not quit." He said.

"Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth. Compared to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant.

But just 6 months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall. It had spent the five years growing roots.

Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive. I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle."

He asked me. "Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots".

"I would not quit on the bamboo. I will never quit on you."

"Don't compare yourself to others." He said.

"The bamboo had a different Purpose than the fern. Yet they both make the forest beautiful."

"Your time will come", God said to me. "You will rise high"

"How high should I rise?" I asked.

"How high will the bamboo rise?" He asked in return.

"As high as it can?" I questioned.

"Yes."

He said, "Give me glory by rising as high as you can."

I left the forest and brought back this story. I hope these words can help you see that God will never give up on you.

Never, Never, Never Give up. For the Prayer is not an option but an opportunity.

Don't tell the Lord how big the problem is, tell the problem how Great the Lord is!

Your Little Whacked World

Yeong Sheng is right..... you do live in a whacked world of your own.... sometimes it's not like I don't want to try to understand, but it becomes so hard when you're trying to make us all fit into your little whacked world... but the funny thing is, I will still end up conforming to whatever whacked thing it is that you want me to do....sometimes I think you protect me just a tad too much (not that I'm entirely ungrateful), and trust me too little, and sometimes (well sometimes) I think you're responsible for killing off whatever interest I have in the outside world, as well as trying to make me do stuff according to your principles (some are good I know, but the others are just whacked), which in turn is slowly destroying whatever principles I have tried to built up while not under your cover; trying to make me into your "perfect girl", which I'm not and never will be....

I know that after a while, I will forget this and think that I'm so silly to say these things about you, I do love you after all (at least I think I do, if not I wouldn't be trying to please you)... I guess I'm just trying to vent this somewhere, but no-point trying to tell you, you live in a whacked world of your own, I'll just be told to "shut up", but of course you don't say it that way... you just say it in a way that I know it's my cue to stop talking...and that I shouldn't have said anything in the first place, and I should have nod and agree and admit that I'm the one wrong (and I'm always wrong, for some reason....)

At the end of the day, maybe you're right (well, sometimes not), but I guess I live in my own whacked world too and I have no right to pass judgment on you.... after all, I'm the one who is deemed as the one who has the problem...

Oh well, I just hope someday you'll know and just accept me for who I really am, flaws and all....

I'm Getting Olde.......

Yes...I'm getting OLD...read the title again....

I mean, I used to have a better memory, I used to remember things easier and I certainly used to enjoy certain animated movies......okie, the last one wasn't that convincing but the point is I'M GETTING OL-DE.......

5 minutes ago I was checking up on my facebook account, there was a friend request... and I took 15 seconds to try to remember who she was (and I knew her, not those freaking anonymous people who you think you might or might not know), and this is not the first time this happened...crap.... this kind of things just don't slip your mind.....!!! I'M GETTING OL-DE!!!! I'm telling you: I really am losing my memory........

Fine, I'm being a bit dramatic....but I gotta inject some drama into my dead boring life now....but that's my fault too, coz I've been lazing around doing pretty much nothing (constructive)....=p

Btw, I'm even too lazy to upload my Mt. Kinabalu photos...not that I have anything else to do....I'm just...lazy.....:) *cheers*