Heh…just thought I’d blog, since it’s been a long time since I’ve written anything constructive, and whenever I write I’m sure to be emo-ing about something or other… but the truth is, my life right now is a whole string of emo events, can’t wait till semester break is here and I can finally heave a sigh of relief…haix...so sorry, another emo entry...
For starters, October is ruined:
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I know it's not that clear, but I hope you get the picture (of what I'm trying to convey) -test, assignment, assignment, assignment - right till the end of 1st semester, as if 1st semester have not been bad enough......
(sigh~)…totally, utterly, completely RUINED!! So much for weekends and sleeping at least 6 hours per day; hello sleepless nights of trying to finish assignments, and preparing tutorials, which would not have been so bad if it was not because of Datin… I’m supposed to be doing 20 credit hours per week but it feels like I only have 20 hours per week doing stuff NOT related to my studies. I spent about 6-7 hours per night trying to finish up tutorials (thanks to Datin), it’s the Raya holidays now and I still need to study and do research till 3 or 4 am, got thousand and one things to do and feels like I can't finish - I've a debate to prepare for for English class next week, we promise Dr. Yong that we'll know our equity inside out and outside in, admin law test next friday, 6 tutorials to prepare for and on top of all, 3 assignments…(sigh) Just when you think the weekend is here and you can rest, Sunday is here and the whole process starts again; I might not even be able to go back next May-June because I most likely would be taking up a special semester to try to finish up my credit hours so I don’t SUFFER during the normal semester (pause, pant, pant) …I think I’m getter fatter because I’ve been eating a lot to de-stress and I have no time to do proper exercise, but ironically I’m starting to develop minor gastric problems due to too many late and all night episodes; I’m starting to react less to caffeine………
Tell me, how can you NOT get depressed???
I keep telling myself that life would get better, I just have to get through second year… but thoughts of what –ifs and changing course keep coming back to me…then again, I know myself too well, I will never take any practical action…(sigh), just gotta push myself through another 2 and a half years of law school… Should have just chosen something easier, then probably I would live longer…geez…
Anyway, I’ll end my entry on a happier and more positive note, that i really thank God for helping me to pull through until this point and I know that He'll pull me through this hell of a year and that I’m having cake from pasar malam tonight to help me through another late night, until next time~
