Continuing to Feel MOODY...

Still feeling very moody today... all in all...my mood hasn't change for bout a week already...I don't like to blog about negative feelings and I know generally people don't like reading about depressing things...(sigh~), but plz bear with me lar...really dunno how to describe how I feel...just feel like... sad? not really lar...it's like I feel like crying but nothing come out...maybe if I can cry I won't feel this way....but I know that if I start crying I won't stop....

Holidays have just started, I'm supposed to be ecstatic, but I'm not... really wanna move to my sis's place as fast as possible...so sien... my roommates already went to stay at their sis's....(sigh~)...so I'm the only one left in my room, usually I really appreciate my privacy or my alone time, but lately have been feeling so moody, everything also no mood, even going to church didn't help to cheer me up today...usually I feel very happy after going to church....

This holiday really need to do a lot of catching up....and then there's assignments too... is this really holiday? (sigh~) right now really feel like eating VedaBlu peppermint and chocolate chip and also pepita....double scoops ice cream, my usuals....yummy...but right now, I'm stuck in my room, listening to Jay Chou's 枫 over and over again...but I love that song la, no matter how depressing it sounds...but still would love the ice cream...right now I don't even have any more chocolate...I finished my M&Ms already...anyway I'm not supposed to eat them again because of the milk problem in China...speking of things I want to eat, I also feel like drinking YoYo 珍珠奶茶....

Really hope that I will stop being moody. God, please help me, help me to be happy, help me to have joy because You didn't create me to be sad....please, please help me to be happy...In Jesus's most precious name I pray, Amen.

The empty beds and my empty room.... tonight I'm sleeping alone...

1st Time Donating Blood

Hey... I know I havent been blogging for a while... had been lazy and tired...maybe the holiday mood is starting to kick in...

Anyway, yesterday was my first time donating blood..and I'm so proud of myself...LOL

At first I was really scared, coz I'm kinda scared of blood...not that I will faint or anything, I just find blood disgusting to look at...haha... but in the end, I plucked up my courage and just went ahead and do it... altogether I think I donated 300ml of blood.... but I suffer from its consequences also...felt very tired today...later going to sleep early...

I'm glad I went to donate because this whole week I was so moody... feel like isolating myself from all the crowd, feel like sitting somewhere quiet, read a good book or the Bible, and seek God in the peaceful and traquil environment, preferbly somewhere high up in the mountains or in a city where no one knows me, and I'm sitting in Coffee Bean drinking my favourite Belgium Chocolate...haha...my ideal vacation...but after donating, my mood has improved...although I'm still feeling moody, but it's an improvement lar....though still feel very tired...

My blood donating record booklet...

Pardon me for the quality of the picture, but it says I donated 300ml to UMMC....haha

See the red spot in the middle? Courtesy of the needle..haha

Wednesdays are Ice-cream Days

The ice-cream that I ate today...

Hey, after seeing the title u guys must think that Wednesdays are happy-days.......but actually....hmm... ice-cream days at college means I'm sad that day... and lately almost every Wednesday afternoons I have been eating ice-cream....

The reason? I'm not that sure... but mayb it's because tort tutorial is on Wednesdays... actually tort tutorial is something that I look forward to, because it's an interesting subject, and I always learn something during tort tutorials... but it is also because of that I'm a bit pressurized... everyone in my class are like super-geniuses... sometimes I don't even understand the things that they ask, let alone the answer that my lecturer gave... -.-'''That's why everytime after that class will feel very down... and I go buy an ice-cream to cheer myself up... no wonder I'm getting FAT...haha

But in a way it's good also lar.... reminds me that I need to study harder... problem is it only lasts for three minutes.. haha...but I think after today, I really want to be serious with it... because I believe God wants me to study hard...so pray for me, I really need to keep up with my class....

My Week and 1st College CC Dinner...

(sigh of relief~) This week's lessons are finally over...althought we only had four days of class, but because my contract tutorial has been switched permanantly to Thursday morning, I have to prepare for tutorial on Wednesday nights now, and get up early on Thursday morning... Then because Monday was a holiday, we had to replace our Legal Method tutorial class today, Friday which usually I am free during the afternoons....

Although I'm done with this week, but this weekend I will have to study for 3 tests which will be taking place next week..AHHHHHHHHHH.........I really don't know how to am I going to remember all those cases for Legal Method... Really have to work hard, and pray hard also...but I believe that God will help me get through it, it's just the process of going through this is going to be tiring... btw, I got accepted for my 1st project at college...yeah! Kempen Derma Darah... it's not a huge project like MPA or FHT, but at least now I will have something to write when I apply to stay back at college next year....really Thank God!! (whether I can manage stay is another matter but at least I don't have an empty portfolio..)

Anyway, want to share with u guys our 1st Residential College Chinese Community (CC) dinner..or as we call it - CC 晚餐 on Tuesday (2 Sept) nite.. quite fun.. because for a change we can eat CHINESE food...especially for those who can't go home on weekends, like me..hehe

We went to this restaurant which name I have forgotten... 大恫饭店 or something like that... (I think I worte it wrongly..haha)...but it was considered quite good already because we only paid RM 15 and we had soup, chicken, fish, tau fu, vege. sotong and of course PORK!!!!! (speaking of pork, I really want to eat bak kut teh.... :''( ) haha....

I forgot to take picture of the food because everyone was too hungry to bother...below are some of the pics I took with my course mates after the dinner for rememberence...

My coursemate, Peng Ying and me...

My coursemates, Jia Luo, Peng Ying and me

From left: my roommate and coursemate, Shee Cheng, Peng Ying, Me and Jia Luo

Dangerous Ice...

Today I went skating with my church share group at Sunway Piramid Ice..ha...what an experience!!

As I have never ever skated or roller bladed in my life, so I keep falling down (like a potato..lol)...I still can't skate, I can't get the feel of it even...I would have hold on to the sides all the time if it wasn't that I already paid RM 29 to go in..so better learn a bit, but that means falling down even more...haha...very painful and very wet, my knee will bruise for sure...it's swollen already..but all in all, quite fun la...something new..at least now I can tell people I've skated before... but I don't think I will do it again anytime soon...because 1. no time; 2. no money; 3. prefer to play badminton ...haha...

My sis and I...at the skating rink

The four of us who went skating: Meei Yi, Me, Wee Keng and Eric

Our entrance tickets..lol